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Have you ever said “yes” to everything that came across? Have you ever grabbed every single chance life had to give you? Well I’ve never. I’m the kind of person that has to have everything organized before making a step. I have to be sure that if something goes wrong the parachute will surely and without any doubt, open. For this reason my life is terrible. It’s a complete mess. I try to get everything fixed, to doublecheck every single detail, but something always, ALWAYS goes in the wrong place… and I don’t have the flexibility to accept it. And my life got worse when I moved to this house in the country… In the middle of nowhere, on my own, without neighbors during the winter, in an old house I restored. I would have really spent less money if I bought it completely new… if this has to be the starting of a new day… wow… how lucky!!!
Last Saturday I watched “YesMan” with Jim Carrey. For those who haven’t seen it, it’s the story of a man who tries to avoid suffering by getting rid of others. He doesn’t answer the phone or returns calls, he stays away from his friends and he has a job he hates. Suddenly he met an old friend of his who invites him to a meeting where he swears he’ll say YES to EVERYTHING… and his life changes.
This movie really made me think on how I feel trapped in this spleen-cynical-mistrusty circle. Am I also trying to expel life from me? The answer is not easy: I do not trust people, more often I’m scared not to honor my responsibilities and more-more often I’m disappointed by the goals I have and haven’t reached in my life. Luckily (or maybe unfortunately) I’m not totally involved in the “maudit” mood, so I’m not thinking about committing suicide or stuff like that; I just wait for the days to pass. But… if life has a very little meaning, and it’s destined to a sure end, I could live it in a more adventurous way, couldn’t I? (I guess this is called instinct of self-preservation. So I decided to take this challenge I saw in the movie! But with some changes: I’m starting with one YESDAY a week (Saturday) and I’ll say yes to everything except for:
1. I’m not saying yes to abuse/torture/killing another human and non human being
2. I won’t eat any meat or fish or dairy
3. I’m not going bankrupt for this experiment
4. I won’t offer any sexual “anything”
5. Every Saturday will be my YESDAY and here’s what happened on the first day of my experiment…
Some friends of mine and I met in a nice bar in Monselice, but first I got lost in a very small town nearby. We were hanging out fine but then some not so funny anecdotes came out that upset the person with me. We went away in a very bad mood, so my first YESDAY (or, better, my first YESHALFADAYDAY) hasn’t been a very nice experience, but I learnt that:
- In movies reality is NEVER real. Life is always bigger, better, faster and more interesting than what it really is.
- It’s really easier to experiment when you’re single
I don’t want to give up so fast, but is it true that life changes for the best if we accept everything? How about you? Are you stuck in something that you don’t like or that you don’t want to be stuck into and your only wish is to run away? Is it true that, as a friend of mine told me, when we say “yes” we unconsciously accept life? Let me know your opinion, I’m curious… as always.